How does love change over time? I am here in Bangkok and having a hard time believing that this was a place I once loved and wanted to live.
The excitement I used to feel for the place is gone. I find that there is nothing here that excites me. It is sad for me, but maybe this is just not my place.
Had a great time in Lombok Indonesia–it was new and fresh. Perhaps it’s because I’m no longer working here in BKK or because I have come here so often, or maybe it’s because we are no longer working closely with artists from here. In any case, am not going to analyze this to death. I’ll just plan on being here for less time next time. There are other places to be.
As the song goes, home is where I want to be.
One plus about Bangkok is going to Bumrungrad Hospital where I can see all my doctors in one day. I do have doctors to see. I won’t list all of my appointments, but I was poked and prodded in lot of different places today, but at the end of the day, all the tests and checks were done and I got the full report in English. Unfortunately, I am not done yet and have to go back tomorrow afternoon to hear the results. I will also see some friends tonight who love it here and that may change my tune a bit.
I have known some of my doctors here for 10 years-since I first started coming to Bangkok. I can talk to them-some of them-which is not the case for doctors in Japan.
Tomorrow, I will also go and visit some friends at Chula. That should be good. I like them and I feel a connection to them which I believe is what is missing for me here in the city.
Big cities are tough. We need some connection with them in order to feel comfortable. If I am unconnected to the people or the institutions –and I am here by myself, it just doesn’t work.
Everyone I knew here has gone-moved to Tokyo or Singapore or the US-and what I used to do here-like exploring restaurants and galleries–just does not excite me anymore.
Can you believe I have been eating at McDonalds here, when I used to love Thai food. [They do not serve Thai food in McDonalds.]
I miss Tokyo and my life there. That is my home.